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FATHER’S DAY TRIBUTE

June 20, 2021

My Dad died 35 years ago this December when I was 34 years old. He’s now been absent from my life for longer than he was in it. That realization saddens me, and not just today — on Father’s Day. Often I lament he did not live to witness the wonderful events and successes that occurred for me after his premature death.

Three years ago, I posted an article about my Dad’s abiding influence on me. In his loving memory I repost it today.

The first Father’s Day in the U.S. was celebrated on June 19, 1910, in Washington state. However, it took 58 years after President Wilson made Mother’s Day official for President Nixon to sign the public law in 1972 making Father’s Day a permanent holiday. Now many countries declare the third Sunday in June as a day to honour the contributions of fathers.

On this special day, I write in a context of acknowledging how fortunate I am in my parents, both of them, through no choice of my own. While Mom was transparent, Dad was opaque, harder to understand. My brothers accept for the most part my description of Mom; I’m less confident when it comes to portraying our Dad. Perhaps they experienced a different man. Because just as mothers and sons often form a special bond, so too do fathers and daughters.

I cannot recall a time when I did not feel deep love from my Dad. We didn’t always see eye to eye; for example, my partner Jack was not welcome in our home in the early ’70s, so disturbed was Dad by my living in social sin. That caused a fracas, as well as a short-lived marriage. But he was, from my earliest memories, my biggest and best champion who gave me the following gifts:

  • Confidence. Arguably you cannot give anyone confidence, yet, through his constant encouragement, his aspirations on my behalf, his evident pleasure in my accomplishments — no matter how small — Dad helped me grow strong. When Mom suggested I become a nurse, he said be a doctor. Although I decided after high school to take a “gap year” (the expression hadn’t been coined), he made sure the University of Alberta sent me an admissions letter, so determined was he that I pursue higher education. Years later a few female friends said they received little support — moral or financial — from their fathers. After all, they were girls! And women’s lib was in its early years. He read and praised my freelance writing assignments, even when the topics — numismatics and contact lenses in Reader’s Digest, for example — likely bored him.
  • Communication skills. Dad spoke and wrote well and, by example, hoped we’d do the same. He filled my mind with inspirational quotations at home and in frequent letters once I left (“This above all: to thine own self be true…”). When I was frightened to speak at school, he taught me the value of story-telling. He narrated an enthralling account of the Atlantic passage of slaves, describing the brutal and unsanitary conditions on the ships, in which hundreds of Africans were packed tightly into tiers below decks for a voyage of about 5,000 miles. I repeated the story and was the star of our grade five class! For a day.
  • Egalitarian values. Dad told us about vying for a position in the medical school at the University of Manitoba. He was ashamed to be admitted while a more deserving young man, Monty Hall, was not, given the quota on Jewish students. In the ’50s, he drove once a week to the Morley Indian Reserve, taking one of us along for the ride. As he tended to the health needs of the community, we played with our peers. He possessed a good sense of humour while making clear ethnic jokes were not kosher in our home. Nor was swearing!
  • A work ethic. Not especially entrepreneurial Dad nonetheless brought out this trait in his children. He cut off our allowances at a young age, challenging us to devise ways to make money. I formed “The Syndicate” with two brothers and we pitched projects — washing the car, weeding gardens, cleaning windows — for pay. Dad also used his influence to get me, at age 15, my first job that required a S.I.N.: waitressing at The Waffle Shop in downtown Edmonton.
  • A safety net. Simply put, I could always rely on my Dad — for support, in all respects, for empathy, for a safe haven, as a confidant.

At age 47, Dad faced the aftermath of the sudden deaths of his father and my friend Ingrid. He experienced his own grief but also watched darkness engulf me. Unable to cope, he had his first heart attack. And that’s when I learned about his low life force. Lying in a hospital bed, he confessed he wanted to die. Although he survived for 15 years, he would have embraced death at any time.

My father aimed to set me up for an enriching life. On this day, I say a heartfelt thank you. ♥

P.S. I would not be my father’s daughter if I did not include one of his many quotations, which I can still bring to mind decades later. This one, by William Wordsworth, seems suited to our sunset years:

“Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind…”

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Dad as Executive Director of the Glenrose Rehabilitation Hospital

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  1. Iain MacCrimmon says

    June 20, 2021 at 10:06 am

    Pam – What a lovely Tribute to your Father and acknowledgment to the wisdom he gave to you! ❤️👍

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 10:19 am

      Thank you, Iain.🙏🏻

      Reply
  2. Janet Anderson says

    June 20, 2021 at 10:40 am

    That was a lovely tribute Pam.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:46 pm

      Thank you, Janet.👌🏻

      Reply
  3. Linda W says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:13 am

    Your Dad was a very special man.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:46 pm

      To me, yes!❤️ I know your Dad is very special too, Linda.

      Reply
  4. Susan Hagg says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:16 am

    Lovely commentary on your Dad, Pam.. I remember him from his teaching Sunday school at Highlands’ church. He seemed to me to be a very gentle man. Nice to have those memories!

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:42 pm

      Thanks for recalling my Dad from Sunday school, Sue. I have nice memories of your Dad too, from play times in your house on 65th Street.

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  5. Linda Richardson says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:20 am

    A beautiful tribute to your father Pam. I, too was heavily influenced by my Dad and also very proud of him. He was a tireless surgeon, a skilled builder and woodworker, an inventor, a sailor, a voracious reader and of course a loving husband and father. In his last few years, he fought ALS bravely and with great dignity. I miss him and celebrate him this Father’s Day.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:34 pm

      We were both fortunate to enjoy special relationships with our Dads, Linda. Happy celebration today.❤️

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  6. Catherine says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:41 am

    What beautiful memories you have of your father! It is a blessing to have such a positive and powerful influence in your life.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:31 pm

      Blessed indeed!🙏🏻 As you likely were too, Cathy.

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  7. Chris Krueger says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:49 am

    I wish I had the words to pay tribute to my dad as well as you did for your dad.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:30 pm

      No doubt you hold beautiful words of tribute to your father in your mind, Chris. Some day you may write them out.

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  8. Marilyn RB says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:52 am

    A beautiful and heartfelt tribute to your Dad, Pam! Thank you for sharing these precious memories of him and then leaving us to ponder Wordsworth’s inspirational words. Do you still hear your Dad’s voice in them?

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 12:28 pm

      I do still hear my Dad’s voice, Marilyn, except when I recall Natalie Wood’s voiceover in the penultimate scene of “Splendour in the Grass,” an old classic worth rewatching.

      Reply
  9. Colleen says

    June 20, 2021 at 11:57 am

    Pam, I have few words … the greatest gift is to share stories and to receive them. Thank you 🙏

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 1:38 pm

      I am waiting for a gift from you of sharing stories, Colleen.😉

      Reply
  10. Patricia Young says

    June 20, 2021 at 4:38 pm

    I enjoyed re-reading your loving tribute to your father Pam. He sounds a fine man and a wonderful father. Your lament that he did not live long enough to witness “the wonderful events and successes” of your life struck a chord. I feel this way about my own father who died when I was 27. My biggest regret is that, though Ian was already in my life by then, we had not yet made the long trip from Quebec to Ontario so my parents could meet the man who I would marry a few years later. As I did not want this to happen with my mother, we made that long trip two months later.
    The odd thing about the death of a loved one is it always seems to come too soon, no matter what your age.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 4:50 pm

      That’s a big regret to harbour all these years, Pat, but you were smart not to err with your mother. Agreed about timing. We are seldom ready to say a final goodbye to our family and friends.

      Reply
  11. MarieMcLean says

    June 20, 2021 at 4:44 pm

    Wonderful tribute Pam.

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 4:47 pm

      Thank you Marie.

      Reply
  12. Tracy Ware says

    June 20, 2021 at 6:47 pm

    That’s a memorable tribute to your father, Pam. When I hear about a man named Monty Hall from Winnipeg, I have to respond: “let’s make a deal.”

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 20, 2021 at 7:38 pm

      Good for you, Tracy. That’s the right man, who wanted to be a doctor but became a famous TV game show host instead. I wonder if Monty Hall lived with regret, or not?

      Reply
  13. Tim McPhail says

    June 21, 2021 at 5:44 am

    Well written as always Pam. This is the quote of Dad’s that made a lasting impression on me :

    “The moving finger writes; and, having writ, moves on: nor all thy piety nor wit shall lure it back to cancel half a line, nor all thy tears wash out a word of it.”

    Omar Khayyam, Rubáiyát of Omar Khayyám

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    • Pam McPhail says

      June 21, 2021 at 9:26 am

      Roy also cites this quotation of Dad’s among his favourites. Learning poetry by rote went out of fashion, and few people quote Wordsworth, Tennyson, Khayyam, Shakespeare, Browning — “Ah, but a man’s reach should exceed his grasp, Or what’s a heaven for?” — and many others, as Dad did.

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